Oh god the cheating conversation, that has been painful with my husband. I'm still not sure he fully gets it as cheating even though he says he does. He does understand it's totally unacceptable and a boundary that never should have been crossed and so I'm happy with that, as long as he realises the seriousness of going back there then that's ok.
I suppose I didn't fully and maybe still don't realise the full effect that PA had/has on my partner and the ability to live in the real world as he was seriously only here in body god knows where he really was whilst in the cyber world of porn. Like I said previously this is all fairly new to me.... the cheating, chatting to others on line and sexting still is so raw I can't even explain how much this makes my blood boil as he hadn't any time for us.... cheating devastates everything - I feel and think I'm paranoid all the time questioning everything past and present.
Post by AnonymousAnnaXOXO on Feb 26, 2017 22:53:40 GMT
PA affects the entire personality. My partner, when in addiction was selfish, desensitized, numb, and just not there. Now, he has become more emotional, more aware, and is trying his best to "be here."
I questioned the entire relationship when I found out. I kept replaying memories over and over wondering if it was all a lie. It took time for me to realize not everything was a lie, and that my partner was sick. It didn't mean it didn't hurt any less, but at least I had a better understanding of how and why it all happened. The first few months after discovery are the hardest. I barely could keep my head above water.